On a slightly brighter note, I'm going to meet the man of my dreams tomorrow. Ok, I know what you're thinking. "Oh no. Not another one!" I know. I'm thinking the same thing myself. He's a client of mine, his name is Steph, he's 28, he's tall, plays guitar, sings and writes songs. He's is the nicest guy I've ever talked to. And we've never met face to face.
God, why do I do this to myself? Why do I feel the need to be obsessed with a guy at all times? I seems like I need someone to focus my attention on, just to get me out of bed in the morning and through the day. Pretty sad, isn't it? I know I'm just setting myself up for disappointment, yet again. Perhaps, if I keep doing this to myself, I'll learn my lesson, right?
This leads to another question. Why do I need a man in my life to be happy? It seems as though my goal in life is to find a man. Period. In my sick little mind, everything would be perfect if I could just find a man. Why is this? Am I the only one who feels this way? Some people tell me that someone will come along once I stop looking. This almost seems impossible to me. My rational side completely agrees though. I'm torn.
Sorry. I didn't mean to go on for so long. It just came out. Feel free to share your thoughts, if you wish.
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i always wish to share my thoughts.
you are not the only woman out there who thinks this way.
it's the problem of our generation. we were raised by women who were married at a young age. women who raised us to believe that being married is something to aspire to, something that will fulfill us...yet on the other hand we are also the product of the 'new feminism' that tells us we don't need a man to be happy or to provide for us and if we think that we do, then we are weak and selling ourselves short. so essentially we are forever pulled between these two ideologies, right. we feel guilty and pathetic for wanting a man in our life and resentful when anyone infers that we do indeed need a man in our lives. and i'm not even including the problems and conflicts that arise when a woman thinks she can do everything at once. sometimes i think we've worked our way into a corner.
why can't we all just go back to the kitchen?
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