Speaking of Ugly

Don't be disappointed but this isn't going to be my top ten Tetes a Claques entry. I'm going to make you wait a little bit longer for that one. (I promise it will be up by Monday and since you know me so well that means by Friday or there abouts. No but really I'll try for Monday.)

So it's the morning before my 'date' with Chuck. Can it even be called a date? I don't know but I'm freaking out. Could he have picked a worse time to decide to see me again? NO. I'm still sick. My TWO cold sores are just about gone but you can still see them. UGLY 1. My eyes are burning and blood shot. Bought some Visine this morning though - so hopefully that helps. so UGLY 1/2. And to top it all off, I started my period. So NEUROTIC X5.

An example if you will of the NEUROTICISM - My friend Russ gave me the latest episode of Heroes to watch (I decided not to go to Gaspanic last night because I felt like complete ass.) and the first episode of Ugly Betty (Have you seen this show Trish?). A show that he has been trying to get me to watch for a few months now. I've refused to watch it until last night because I know when Russ tells me that I'll love a show I know it will be instant addiction for me, two words for ya: VERONICA MARS. Needless to say I lucking foved it!! I cried through the whole thing but I loved it. (I finally get to the neurotic part.) This is not a sad TV show Trish. It's funny. Hilarious really. But I sobbed through the whole bloody thing. Why? Because I was pre-menstrual, that's why. This is the first time this has happened to me. Sure I've teard up at Bell commercials and maybe the occasional Heritage moment ad but full on sobbing, no. It is the stress of seeing Chuck after 14 months? Is it the fear of putting myself out there again? The thought of being hurt again is not one that I relish. Once bitten, twice shy, ne. So I'm all excited about seeing him again but I'm also reticent. The possibility that I won't see him for another 14 months again is very real. So why bother right? Why am I putting myself through this? Well, because I missed him and I like spending time with him. So this entry must end because I have exactly one hour to get ready for my date with Chuck -

Wish me luck! (BTW I'm sure you've already checked out Surfing 50 States right?)